buildings and boundaries.

the last 2 months happened overnight. we played a great show at the music hall... fun fun fun fun fun. i've kept the 2 little wooden houses from the shopping feist-spree for her art. but i've kept them in my pocket or in my purse and set them down at each new home. 2 houses. always thinking in 2's. it's being a twin maybe? i'm trying to update my work and life and all things. i've put some new pictures on the rubies site... www.simonerubi.com/rubies.html

i am drowning in work. trying to come up for air. at some point, something is gonna give. trying to do it all. i want it all.

recording with scott was refreshing. the process felt so much different then the stockholm and bergen recordings. putting some california onto the record. when i am here, the process feels so secondary. it is more what is happening and going onto the songs. more scientific in a way. it's also because the album is so close to being done. it was very real. i also got terribly ill for a week. that was brutal! especially since i got better for our show with 'of montreal'- and then the night before my big vocal day, i got sick again so the stuff we recorded on the $20,000 microphone get's scrapped. how many cities will it take for me to sing 'diamonds on fire' the way that it needs to be sung? i am going to try it within the next few days here at home on my microphone. i think late at night. i am missing the personal intimate 'sitting in your bed playing a guitar' feeling. i have much to do still. i am also learning to branch out into this project. amy and terri are feeling more a part of it now that we did these san francisco sessions. i really like the way amy's voice sounds on these recordings. everything is blending nicely. these songs are really a declaration to so much that has gone on in the last 2 years but they are also songs i want people to dance too and not think too much. the more that goes into these recordings, the harder it is for me to make a decision on what direction to take them in. i need some outsider ears at this point. someone i trust but someone i don't know well enough to care if they hurt my feelings. total complete meltdown. having that anxiety feeling again. sometimes i just have to stand still for a few minutes while i wait for all the fear and anxiety leave the cells. it can all be so scary and wonderful. am i the only one in on this? sometimes i feel like i'm the last to know. send me a letter please. i am into postcards lately. so much so, that i did this little project. www.thisishowwedo.com/postcard.html
i miss all my stuff. it's still in storage. i hate that is becomes more and more of a metaphor. this little bit of writing has been a bit too much i think. a little self indulgent. i'll wake up new, i promise.