Dec 25, 2006

until january 1

merry christmas.
just wanted to let you know that the 8 song Rubies EP will only be available until january 1. it has new artwork and new songs from last year. the songs have been recorded with a full band for the come out in the fall of '07 but these are the original demos that have a character all on their own. drum machines and lots of synthesizers mixed with a few songs of just simone and lovely terri and amy harmonies and one guitar... These demos are special to me because they document the last year and a half of learning how to record on my own and tell the tales of a time of change, love, loss, and experimentation of sound.
After January 1, the songs go in the vault.
purchase the ep through paypal for $8 for US orders : $10 mexico : $12 for Europe/Japan orders. If I didn't list your country, just send me an email and we'll figure it out... for paypal
1. A Room Without A Key
2. Dark Light
3. Turquoise
4. Diamonds On Fire (special guest carrie clough)
5. Signs Of Love
6. All We Have Is Sound
7. Stand In A Line (produced/recorded by safety scissors)
8. Walk With Caution

Dec 14, 2006

over and over

lately been listening to:
doris - whispering pine
studio - out there/life's a beach
blood music - the hair
ass - stealing apples
paul simon - run that body down
racket and ball - do you
el perro del mar -god knows
norman jay - giant 45 show on bbc radio
ned doheny - hard candy (album)
lindstrom - it's a feedelity affair (album)
spinners - could it be i'm falling in love
birds of america - you
kilimambogo brothers - nwendwa jane
karen young - deetour
peter bjorn and john - young folks
tussle - warning
paul mccartney & wings - wonderful christmas time
ratatat - wildcat
the whitest boy alive - burning
soft machine - the soft weed factor

Dec 13, 2006

it could set you free

the double dose dolphins will set you free. i took these in vegas. a while ago. but they came to my attention today when i did the thing where you get all nostalgic when you look through old iphoto stuff. i think it's good to look through old things. i had this conversation with d while decorating the x-mas tree about over romanticizing people and memories. my heart is so pulled to the memories but i feel very present too. i am on that strange cusp of time. stranded, sorta. in the middle. that will change.

Dec 10, 2006

what is what

this week is important. i want to put the plan into action. everything is in place. i have been listening to a lot of dance music lately. the simple catchy stuff like 'fast and delirious' by lindstrom. i wanna make dance music. i miss being in a real band.

Dec 7, 2006

i miss you, me, and the thing

i really do. staying focused can be hard. i feel so isolated in this small town but i am learning how to challenge myself. i am interested in what a place is and what is does to a person. there are a lot of things wrong about this town but i am grateful for it's beauty and gentle nature. i want in on all of that stuff but i want out on code and whimsy. have i mentioned how much i dislike everything that is 'whimsical'? barf.

i think being in a larger city just means you are more social and you have more opportunities to measure yourself up against everything. art, music, people, relations, structure, color, politics,etc.

like a social reflection. a mirror where you decide whether or not you are into the way you seem when bounced off of others and new experiences. so in a small place you tend to just have yourself and the environment to bounce off of. in my case, it's me, my sister and her boyfriend, the mountains and the ocean. oh and my musical instruments. good for now, bad for later.

Dec 1, 2006

playing you songs from my upcoming album

so i have this idea to play a show from my room on wednesday. dec 5. i thought it would be both funny and entertaining to see someone play some songs from their room for people with ichat and skype. this idea came to me when i was playing a song for a friend the other night on skype and thought that doing a show this way would be a fun experiment. plus it's free and you can hang out in your room and we can hang out together this way. i am going to do this around 11am california time so 8pm uk time 9pm west europe time. i am going to play songs from the upcoming album and a new one that i wrote 2 days ago. unfortunately i won't be with the other "rubies" but i promise to be slightly interesting and mostly genuine. plus i can show you what santa barbara from my front door looks like and you will meet my cats marcel and julius. you are in for a treat! ichat name is skype name is simonerubi

Nov 29, 2006

big sur meets rubies

california! big sur! played a wonderful festival called "folk yeah : 2 days of autumn" - saw some great bands play. i enjoyed hearing andy cebics voice from 'vetiver'. what a great voice. and some other bands i had never seen before that were a great soundtrack to the big redwoods and river behind the cabin. birds of america were transcendent. my sister took some great photos. check them out here on danielle's photo blog.

the whole weekend made me feel nostalgic for everything. i got a horrible infection in my ears though and i was bleeding from my ear. which was not fun. i went to santa barbara and visited the ol' doc and have been medicated ever since. i do have to say though, that today is the first day that i feel like i am truly back from my long adventure. now i am on chapter 15. CHAPTER HOME. still not sure what that is though. home. this is the order:

big sur


there is so much more. i am going to go up to san francisco for the month of january and 1/2 of february. doing a bunch of overdubs and vocals for the record. terri and amy doing some harmonies and we might try and record a newer tune called "silver mornings". i want to finish this record by the end of feb. on a side note, something is strange in the air. people are falling out of love everywhere. i miss my friends in sweden. if you are out there i am hugging you.

Nov 16, 2006

bergen, again.

More recording in Bergen! Norway is such a nice place to return to. I returned myself and brought along a Swede (Marcus) from the Swedish sessions. It was great having someone there from the Swedish sessions to help sing harmonies and for overall band vibe. I felt rushed though. I don't know if I'll keep all the vocal tracks we recorded- I didn't have enough space between each song to make them all sound different and dynamic. Fun to see both of my recording worlds come together though! Eirik and Oystein were there for support and I felt their spirit go onto tape. Davide too. He is in love with sound in a way I haven't seen in a long time. I am so glad I am working with him. I am going back in January I think to do more songs with Eirik, O, and A. It feels right and I am so happy with the the tracks I recorded in Bergen. As I type this, I am lying on a couch in San Francisco. Yup, I have returned to the golden state of California. Rubies play tonite for an art / music show in conjunction with good swedish friends Karl-Jonas (producer for the swedish sessions! and his first time to california!) and his lady, Johanna Billing. A bunch of bands are doing a version of a song called "you don't love me yet"- it will be interesting to be a part of this ongoing project. Tomorrow we play Big Sur. All of this, is a bit overwhelming. To be home after this long adventure, and to see all these familiar faces. It feels good.

Nov 3, 2006

zanzibar takes the shape of stockholm.

i am back in stockholm. thoughts of zanzibar keep flooding my mind! finding parallels in all cities. everything has been made by us, the same species. i saw the weirdest museum ever in stonetown, zanzibar. crystal chandeliers, astroturf, church upstairs, plastic chairs, broken frames, framed presidents (3), and rifles on the ground. i have felt exhausted the last 2 days. can't seem to catch up ever. had a room at a 1970 hotel in stockholm my first 2 nights back because i needed to space. what i got was a box! a shoebox for a room. small enough to fit a twin bed. but i liked it. except for hearing every sound from the guy next door. so there wasn't a lot of sleeping. shouldn't people get refunds if they aren't allowed a certain amount of sleep at a hotel? i mean, it's a product they are selling to people. if it doesn't work... can we exchange or return it? i want to return the 'lack of sleep' i purchased.

rehearsed with marcus yesterday. or tried. we both were so exhausted that what we were left with were a few unison harmonies. but i think him coming to bergen to record will be good. nice to have a dude's voice on my songs. i've always wanted that.

Oct 30, 2006

time travel.

how can i look forward to thinking about yesterday? i am getting close to the end now. i feel the kinetic momentum towards the return. i have to slow down and stay at a good pace now though. the time is going by faster and i have more left to do. i leave for stockholm in 8 hours. i ate some raw meat tonite. it was good. i heard about a postcard that had a hamburger karaoke band on it? jeez. that sound too good to be true. on a side note, i bought shoes for 6 pounds at a grandma shoe store. i hope i like them in a week. the guy in the shop kept laughing at me for initially asking for a size 10 womens- which at home is what i am- but here i am a size 8. i didn't think it was that funny but the dude was cracking himself up. i want to record a lot this week. london has been good. mainly the conversation and walking. met a cool group of graphic designers and they invited me to the studio and they pretty much blew my mind with all the cool work they have been doing. i ate lunch with them and they fed me some wierd fishy potato thing. it tasted better when they showed me the neat magazine they made. oh yeah, and they made mugs with drawings of their friends faces on it. they do a drawing of everyone they know and then slowly add them to this huge file of face drawings. i had my picture taken so they could draw me, because they know me now.

Oct 29, 2006

set the dials back to zero.

i keep finding myself on the eastern side of things. not on earth, but on segments and in time.
just arrived into east london from east africa. 2 weeks in kenya,tanzania, and zanzibar. i can't quite get a handle on anything at the moment. i'm officially in chapter 10. i think it will all start making sense very soon. watching the animals this time was different. we were the caged animals. the endagered species in strange familial vehicles. how beautiful is this planet that we live on. we can't forget. it is not over. i rode on a hot air balloon at 5 in the morning watching the sunrise over the serengeti in tanzania. i could feel it all. a group of zebras will send you into a siezure if you aren't careful. the stripes and the zing zang. zanzibar waters are warm and clear. the sand is bright. i felt torn out when i left the waters. it was too good. i am still in the present. but each day i think about it all. i feel good. i know it will all work out. my dials are at zero.

at a flat on my own. which is nice. i have my things and a place to rest my head. jerome has left and i'm going to sit in on the norman j show with chelsea. looking forward to hearing the music they play.

and about the record. because thats what i was set out to do. i start working on it wednesday with marcus doing some singing maybe. i have had a hard time deciding what is best. will be back in bergen on sunday to record. all vocals on same mics. i think that is the best. the thread that holds it together. the mics. will it be nice with a guys voice doing harmonies? or should i do them myself? questions questions.

i know if i talk about it with anyone, i will end up at my own conclusion so i know i must decide on my own. on my own. on my own. i am hungry.

also i know that whatever emotions i am going through, even if i am hurt or rejected, even if i am elated and satiated, even if i am on top of the world, even if i am on the deep end, they are supposed to be there and were handed to me. i have provided these emotions in others and cyclically, they are handed to me. sometimes i just don't know where to put them, where to hold them. how much of it is real and how much of it is from travelling. it becomes fairy tale. one long tale. and then i am home (without a key) , with my feet on the ground, and still wondering. was it all a mistake? do i say too much? i just can't help it.

Oct 12, 2006

i'm out. i'm in. london is calling.

what beauty is in this world! the fog rolled in on the beaches yesterday. left just in time to meet the sun in london. sun in london. staying at a loft that is really reminding me of oakland. biding time until africa on saturday. not sleeping much, again. music music money money music music money money. gotta finish the record. think i'll go back to scandi after africa. what are you going through? i could get lost and never be found, i think.

Oct 7, 2006

everything is everything.

dude why do we keep reinventing our days into sequenced memory banks? damn. how do thoughts turn inward and backwards? i hate repeating myself. am i a hedonist? am i excessive? i love answering questions. i'm afraid to ask them. i busted my toe open at the alhambra in granada. i put my foot into a 12th century fountain and watched the clear water turn pink. tourists were frightened as the blood was pouring out. i thought i would be more reactionary then i was. i laughed and continued to walk. only later, when i looked down and saw the mess and the lack of skin, was i a little askew.

more metaphors. ok so my favorite wooden ring (which reminds me that i have a wooden mind) broke into 3 pieces as i got off the plane into portugal. every day since, a bird has shat on me. sick! but i found a great parking spot on day 2. whatevs. oh there were 1000 birds swarming above my head yesterday too.

but i am thinking that there is something going on. i feel like a newborn. like a new roommate. wide eyed and common. have i done it all before? no! nothing! there are signs around that are telling me something, i just need to find the key. to open the door. my door is open!

i wonder about skin, how it moves, stretches and how is feels.
i forget things.
i feel like i have lived a few different lives.
there is this one,
and the one "before"

but i think there is another one, too. on the "side"
not before
but on the side. in that space- in that box
next to the compartments
when i procrastinated
all the time- but i think that built me up- strong- i love the pressure! i love the last minute! i thought i would learn from those "mistakes" but instead, they made life beautiful and full of chance. ok so i could spend tons of time wondering and fine tuning and maybe take 8 times as long to get something done
but it doesn't matter
it is temporary and i still feel it all when i do it- and it is deliberate- so it counts. for me, it counts.

i wanna make a records that has dance songs on it. like some seriously produced stuff. the BASS. but i also want to play live in a room. i want to be in a movie. i want to cook a 8 course meal. i want to be the best kisser. i want to hug forever.

on a side note, we went underneath the coolest suspension bridges on our way from portugal to spain, ever.
we ate lots of ham.
we saw the alhambra and AV showed us the best place for churros and chocolate. we saw the mediterranean and it was still. i ate clams and pork today. i cooked for them. i like vodka.

Oct 4, 2006

white glows.

portugal X me = dizzy.
was so strange to wake up in portugal after scandi-land.
swimming in blue-green waters and eating dates and manchego cheese.
cool dog names sebastian and got lost driving.
driving to seville and grenada (spain) today. nice to be with m and m.
joking and speaking familiar tones. thomas and liz have a beautiful house with a special room for me. palm tree outside the window. we are on the hunt for goodness.

Sep 30, 2006

plastic parties with real people

i guess there was a lot of left over purple and orange plastic material from someone's christo project at the stockholm airport so this guy had a party last night and he wrapped all of his belongings in plastic. at first, it was subtle....sitting on a orangle plastic covered table. then i noticed a painting that had been wrapped too... then i looked around the room and noticed everything had been covered. even the remote control to the plastic wrapped tv. he had kj play songs on his purple covered piano in candlelight. met this jewelry maker that was really a breath of air- red plaid and black satin- she was a character but so into it all and happy to meet me. i love when people are happy to meet me. it makes me happier to meet the next person and so on and so on. tonite i play ugglan.

Sep 28, 2006

hunting and gatherings


was woken up by strange men that felt free to walk on through my room at 730am. they continued to carry some kind of community meeting downstairs for hours, drinking coffee and talking at peak volume. kinda funny but kinda not. but sleeping in a communal house, that's what happens. the part that stuck with me all day was when i opened my eyes there was this old dude just standing there in my room speaking swedish to me and all i could do was say "uh... hi? hello?"- and he continued to speak in swedish and then bailed. wierd. same thing happened this morning. same dude. yuck.

emmy, who i met last year, was in town and called early yesterday- so we spent the day together.
looked for chanterelle mushrooms, got stung by nettles, walked though parks, farms, and around lakes. took buses to markets, bought tons of chanterelle and trumpet mushrooms (emmy kept speaking of these creamy mushroom toasts so we had to make them), talked about people, places, music, and got on a ferry, felt the air bounce off of the water and onto me, got sore feet, was happy about it, felt like a feeling, and got tired.

marten cooked the mushrooms with emmy, and a roast with garlic and herbs, potatoes with dill, and good beer. the mushrooms were sauteed, then flour, cream, butter, s & p- and then put on toast. dude. was so good. some folks came over for the dinner at "my place" which has a huge kitchen and dining room table. it was awesome. was trying to blow some minds with the dinner cd mix i made. karl-jonas cared. (thanks to the sorcerer for the rubies tour road jams)

i am gonna just list things on this entry.
saw marcus in his uniform with kj.
thought about my last few jobs. and my first one at that bakery. i liked it.

saw maria dj. she glows. thinking a lot about what i'm going to different at the show this saturday at ugglan. i want to stand on something and i want yellow balloons.

i set up a recording studio-ish zone in my room.
i used the wooden beams to hang 2 shure mics with rope.
one for the room/guitar and one for vocals. recorded 2 songs of marcus and whoa they sound really good. i've been learning a lot about recording this month. the right EQ's the right reverbs the right compression. i want to be a producer.

had a total meltdown last night though.
it can all be too much sometimes
missing family and friends
feeling alone and wondering why why why all the time
but i know that life is good
and i am healthy
but sometimes i can't help but feel it all
like a child i think - it doesn't hide itself- it is just all right there in front of me- why am i singing this songs? what am i singing about? and it's hard to not have a home. but t reminded me of how beautiful it all is, and that i am making it happen and not having a home, and travelling is rare, but being home doing the day to day things will always be there so i should get into all of this. i am into it. i am lonely and miss people understanding me. i guess in the end we just want to be loved. sometimes i feel like i am the last person without it...but i know it is rare and unique and i just have to be patient. i am a lot. i give a lot. i stopped giving last night for an hour. i had to just be still and wonder. hugs are powerful when you remember that you are holding another person and all of what they are, in your arms.

Sep 26, 2006

sleeping under hearts

this is the bed that i sleep in here in stockholm. it is in a barn type attic space. it get's cold at night but a little whiskey never hurt anyone. played songs in the attic last night with my dear friends. andreas used an old speaker as the most insane percussion instrument you've ever hurt. kj and i are writing a song called "this is not a beautiful house" and it's going to be a hit and sweep the country and we will be billionaires. m is still a mystery and liz is rad. we had a good chat that brought my heart back to center.

Sep 25, 2006


bikes and battles

i love riding bikes through towns with cobblestones. the rhythms that are made are rad. the speed is just perfect too. slow enough to have thoughts (unlike driving on highways) and fast enough to make you feel stoked on getting home at night. e lent me ina's "veteran bike" which was this great 50's black bike. the pedals were solid, the one speed a bit clunky, but i was diggin it. on my last day in bergen yesterday, i was able to watch the sunrise which was incredible. i rode out to this lookout spot near the flat and hung out with a bunch of fisherman.

i am in stockholm now. staying at a "festlocal" at my friend liz and marten's place. it is a studio apartment in a building that folks that own flats in the same building can sign up to use for friends. so i've got it for the week and it feels great to be in the center of it all. rumour is that it was used to store dead bodies back in the day though. i had some creepy imagery and make believe scents this morning (mourning) as i thought too much about it. but then i watched 'when harry met sally' at 3 am and the spirits became friendly new yorkers instead of faceless diseased swedes in corsets and leather. hah.

i have to say
billy crystal is funny. dude. really funny. rewatch that movie! there is a lot of those split screen shots where harry and sally are both in bed talking on the phone. there is a scene where harry says, "i'm gonna go now and lie here and moan for a while". Sally says "good night" and hangs up the phone. Her side of the screen goes black and on harry's side, the camera stays on him for about 20 seconds while he is obviously ad-libbing and he just lies there and moans for a while. really funny.

maybe i was just nostalgic for american new york humour that had me laughing out loud. not sure. oh dag, now i'm a little embarrassed for even mentioning that film. whatever.

days are turning into a series of symbols, metaphors, math, longing, and melodies.
been listening to the bergen songs and i am loving them. e's voice is like velvet.

doing vocal recording tomorrow.... 6 songs. hope to get it done in one day. we'll see.
i'm definitely going back to bergen to record for more songs. i miss those guys already. had such a fun night with davide on the last night. talking intently about sound. recording that last kings record. the "moments" that they had compared to the moments we shared. i guess "the build-up" was his favorite moment. it felt completely alive in the studio during that recording. i got chills when he described the sound in that studio during that day.

during day 2 of our studio sessions
eirik said right before the take that ended up being the final take, "i feel like i am in the best chapter of the book of music."

they are feeling it. so am i.

Sep 22, 2006

homes and houses

took a walk and found some neat doors, more postboxes, homes on water, black and white birds, 13th century roads, and open fields. i am starting to wonder if there is such a thing as travelling too much. were we meant to constantly overload our minds? i've experienced the addiction to the "new" but i've also overcome the need to stay there. it's so hard! i can feel the shift of excitment when i think about going "back" somewhere. like the beginnings of things are the addiction. exploring cities or people, learning how to speak again, seeing their eyes open and close, then going to a new place, seeing the same things, but they are different because you have changed, you have become a product of the town before, and before, and before that... so you bring that to the next place or person. eirik spoke of a thread that holds everything together- there is that thread that continues to connect every moment and every thought. a thought only comes from a previous thought, so if we really spent some time (that would be a luxury!) we could trace our conversations back for days and weeks- and we could find the thread, the thought that started the next and the next...

somehow thoughts don't have the room to complete themselves unless there is a sense of home. having e's apartment for these days has given me a sense of home... which brings along habits and the need for ritual. walk in, go down the corridor, put the key on the table, look around the main room, then go to the bedroom to have personal space thoughts... then think about what to eat...what to drink...what to say....

today it's blue again. there were 3 rainy days here.... walking home from the studio at 3am in the rain was a bit rough but really beautiful too. found myself exploring this old wedding chapel from 1240 at 4 am 2 nights ago. my heart filled up, and had a mini explosion (i really felt my heart speed up and it felt wierd in my throat). feeling it all.

i hope these sessions don't sound to different from the stockholm sessions. i'm thinking of coming back here and recording 4 more songs so then there would be a "side a" and "side b" feeling. unless someplace or someone convinces me otherwise over the next few weeks. i go to stockholm on sunday.

Sep 20, 2006

take 6

had to rethink a song we recorded monday night.
eirik suggested we start over from scratch. which was hard... but in the end it made a world of difference. we recorded in a circle. live. oystein on piano, eirik on drums, davide on stand up bass, and me on guitar/vocals. take 6 was the one. it brought tears which felt incredible. we are using these shoeps microphones for vocals and drums....and some neumann microphones for the room. it sounds rad.

Sep 18, 2006

doing the thing

recording started today. we did the basics for 2 songs. i am super happy with the change in arrangement and tone. eirik has a great ear for changes and oystein and anders are really feeling the music. yes! my plan has worked! on the way home from the studio, at 3am, i had this thought... about another thought. a thought that entered my brain so long ago, the idea to make an album on my own- with help from people i really care about and whose music has inspired me. it's really hard to do things all alone- so the help has really taught me new ways to play, new ways to listen, and new ways to feel. also, working with these new engineers, gets me closer to knowing what to listen for and how to work with others. whoa, this is sounding like a cover letter for a resume. but you get the idea. the main thing, is that there were really really good snacks there. and oystein was making us all laugh....especially when he started imitating dudes from radiohead on the cover of mojo, like in this photo.

Sep 17, 2006

post boxes

i'm into all the different post boxes here.
i'm gonna get some polaroids of them.
they all have different writing. i like that

i almost died

from an exlosion made by fireworks!
bergen boys and me were lying on the roof of the rehearsal space watching the stars.
fireworks came shooting out of nowhere
stuff flying down at us
still on fire
then racing to get back into the building but were locked out
yelling for someone to let us in
and finally got in
10 seconds later
an explosion on the roof from one for the big fireworks
and a shooting ball of fire came straight at us at the glass

if we had been there for 10 more seconds...something horrible would have happened.
it was crazy
but i have to say
pretty awesome
it felt like 6th grade shenanigans.

on another note
i am way into this one cafe på høyden
local and organic
yummy stuff.
here is the saffron bread/red currant/gouda sandwich
pumpkin and red beet soup
aoili on all the bread here!

a lot of these pancakes
which are like in between a crepe and our pancakes
i had one with spinach, bacon, and chevre that was pretty tasty

one thing i really dig
is when they make an ice coffee, they put some sugar in with the espresso when it's hot
before pouring it over ice

now you may think that is the obvious and logical way so that the sugar melts
but how come we don't do this at home? every cafe at home hands you the ice coffee and never asks if you would like it to be sweet so they can do that for you...


Sep 14, 2006

i painted a room where i will sleep

from beach to bergen

chapter 5.
after a wonderful week home in california (see beach above) playing shows with feist...
and on stage with my homies terri and dan

i am here in norway.
it took 24 hours of travelling from la to here. dude.

put to walk along these cobblestone street and taste the saffron in the bread
brings me back to exactly one year ago
when d and i were here climbing hills, playing music, and learning words.

i painted a room today in eiriks new apartment. it will be the room where i sleep.
his mom and i made it happen...
and it was so so so warm too. such a california day here. rode bikes (i have a bike!) and ate strange organic concoctions (pumpin and beet root soup, ham and scrambled egg sandwiches and red currant rolls) with eirik in his hometown. jammed with kommode which was great! oystein, anders, eirik and i jamming some elevator funk. totally digging his new songs and teaching them one of mine. sounding good.

"it's not enough" i think is the title of this one.

Aug 28, 2006

gold vortex, diamond heart

just finished installing a thready, vortex filled world on feist's wall.
nailed it all in.
cut out her shadow out of black paper- which was awesome . feeling someone's paper hands.
so special

chanterelle omelettes again
because they are 5$ for a pound.

photo is from the venue in stockholm we played. i had so much fun with terri. i miss her.

Aug 25, 2006

paris, coffee, and egyptian playing cards

been thinking of cool album titles for hours. i like invisible echo but i think i found the one i really like. keeping it in my brain until it feels like skin. definitely on chapter 2 now in paris. hanging with leslie and her roommate mary has been really fun. had craft day and art supply store day yesterday. there are some old playing cards involved. egyptian playing cards with strange imagery. some had knives on them. there is a dog here named rocco. he's kinda midge style. mary is from the natti. we spoke of skyline chili and that it is brown and that all the food from skyline looks brown. sick.

met the biggest art dealer of paris yesterday. emmanuel perrotin. he took us all out to an incredible meal and i sat next to vanessa bruno, the fashion designer. we talked for an hour about twins. she's pretty damn special. her clothes are really beautiful. leslie gets them for free.

so i am getting ideas for artwork for her. i am excited to be thinking on this scale. it's bringing me back into conceptual thinking and deliberate meaning in design. all analog. We went to the art supplies store yesterday and bought a ton of stuff
And a toy shop
And an office shop
And a junk shop

Finding little things to use
An old fan with moroccon lattice on it to project through with the overhead projector.
tracing paper and hi-lighters. old books and neon paper. lots of gold things.

I am using my old polaroid slr 680 and will be taking all the photos

My idea is that it will all be analog
All the writing and titles will be in the photograph
So nothing is digitally put over the images

We will see....

been walking around the streets remembering to be here, to be in the moment. it is getting harder and harder to do that. because there is so much non linear activity and travel and my mind gets increasingly stuck in the thing i am doing at that moment without the sense of reflection. oh and that 'no more second hand god' business that nat was going on about had been so much a part of my thinking. no more second hand. i am feeling this sentiment.

got lost a park that really was a square and it was pretty small but i still got lost. that was the "i'm in paris" moment. a statue of a woman coming out of a field of peach colored roses. a couple sitting on the stone bench kissing. yeah yeah yeah.

best falafel of my life too. the eggplant - i don't know how they do it. i was on a corner near muji and had a flash to around this time last year when i was here with d and e - and e gave me a slap down for not sitting down at a table with some dude that he thought was cute. the 'cold' approach. no way.

recording so far has been really really really good. lars, the drummer is very much the swedish jordan. marcus, the guitar player, is very much the swedish dan. and then having terri there was so great. she really helped move things along, arrange, listen, and do the 'nod' to what was working and what wasn't. the tracks are sounding even better then i thought they would. karl jonas has taken this project on like it was his band which means so much to me. he has gone above and beyond his call of duty. duty. wierd. i've fallen in love with everyone.

Aug 10, 2006

santa stockholm

i have been here for a couple it's sunny. fair to say around 80 degrees so it feels kinda home-ish. been wandering around a lot and it's starting to feel like a true european vacation. the work starts soon though and i'm so excited about it. i haven't talked about music in a way that i love in a long time. last night i hung out with some new friends and talked about music in such a new way. saw some cool bands on the top of a building while the sun was setting. everything going on here happens outdoors which is cool. beers outside. chilling outside. shows outside. i think they have to take advantage of the great weather because in the winter it gets depressingly cold. apparently, sweden has the highest rate of suicides next to japan which i find really odd considering all the people i've met are so warm and positive. guess they snap under the deep long winters. i couldn't do it....but then again i haven't tried. starting to undertand the strange vowel pronunciation but i feel handicapped when i try to pronounce the street names. a little embarrassing but a good challenge to try and hear the sounds and replicate. i guess that's all it is about learning to speak languages- getting the courage to correctly mirror the words back to the locals the way they say it. had this crazy corned beef hash type meal at 1 in the morning last night and they gave us a side bowl with raw egg yolks and chives to poor on top of the fried potatoes.whoa. they certainly wouldn't allow that in the states- and it was so good! heard this girl sing really interesting stuff last night. she sings back up with the girl from the knife and i could hear that a lot. strange voices. i thought it was a cd and then i walked into the next room and this band was totally ripping it up dancefloor style eurythmics style with crazy singing and drum machines. i was down. how could i deny the power of song in a foreign land? i met this really self depricating kid that was making me laugh because he kept putting down his music and saying how bad his songs are but there seemed to be a lot of people there enjoying it. it was refreshing and nerdy. i was given this tshirt to sleep in. so i'm kinda sleeping at home.

Jul 29, 2006

i wish i could talk in strings

how rad would it be if when we spoke, colors came out instead of words.
blogs are public.
that scares me a little
the need for that thing.

buzzing bees in harmony
desert is choking
ocean is full

floating seriously rules, guys and gals.
i want to hold hands and float. i want to float like root and beer.
i want to lay inside of the boat, i want to listen and hear

what if we could do that for a long time?
i remember thinking things were not scary at all
everything was possible
it you thought about it enough it would happen

now i believe it!
but it's scary.
some people are made out of fear. or it comes to them in bursts. but then i showed them how to dive in, and in that, i learned about the difference between desire and sex. the difference between wanting vs owning. the constant state of wonder. wonderment. everything is new.

Jul 20, 2006


i heard it was packed of mellow people. which is cool. i am excited to be playing with amy again and newly, david. music every day. coconut cupcakes. nat called them toke-a-nut. i'm excited. i love the poster nat made for the event tomorrow. he is also painting 15 cd sleeves. i like a genius.

Jul 15, 2006

we are all connected by a thousand threads. i feel all the different colors throughout the highs and lows of the day. today is blue-ish yellow. but earlier it was definitely purple. i'm super down with purple right now. i think the bros think that i'm into dragons and crystals because i wear purple. you decide. i sang about mounting a fairy stallion all day so that says something.

finding it.

starting to make lists. it helps.